Why I Share My Testimony

It is never pleasant to relive the past when I share my testimony.  But I do it because God uses it to comfort others.  A hurting woman knows I understand her pain and suffering when she hears that I have been down the same road.  And when she receives healing from God, she will extend that same comfort to yet others so that the circle of wounded healers widens.

I’ll never forget the first time I shared a short testimony before a group of women at Phoenix First in the fall of 1990.  I had panicked at the thought of standing before the pastors’ wives and the matriarchs of the church and telling them even the briefest highlights of my sordid past.  I had been a Christian for only about eighteen months, and I still carried a dump truck size load of shame about my past sins, even though I knew God had forgiven me and completely changed my life—in fact, he had called me into full-time ministry.

They’re going to shun me, I thought.  They’ll talk about me, and I’ll never be able to hold my head high.  I’ll have to leave the church.  They think I’m the perfect little Christian, but when they find out. . .

On and on the accusing voice assaulted my mind.  My stomach was so tied in knots; I didn’t think I could go through with it.  I nearly backed out at the last minute, but I managed to battle my fear and honor my commitment to give a five-minute testimony.

I was petrified as I stepped behind the pulpit—the spot usually occupied by Tommy Barnett, one of the most respected pastors in America.  What an incredible honor.  Some one thousand women were in the audience, about six or seven hundred from the inner city and three or four hundred ladies from Phoenix First.  The lights were dimmed, so I couldn’t see their faces.  But I definitely heard them respond when I took the microphone and said, “From the time I was seventeen to the time I was twenty-one, I had five abortions.”  The loud gasps throughout the audience paralyzed me for a moment, but I finished my story and then sat down to listen to the other testimonies.  Well, now they know, I thought.  I wondered if anybody would even speak to me, or if they would just avoid me.

One of the first people I saw afterward was Marja Barnett, my pastor’s wife.  Phoenix Fist Assembly is a huge church, and as I recall, she had never spoken to me before, except perhaps to say hello.  This beautiful, gracious woman came over to me, kissed me on the cheek, and then clasped my hands.  “Oh, Lori, you poor thing,” she said in her lilting Swedish accent. “I never know you have such a horrible life—I can’t believe what you go through.  I’m so happy you are in our church.  I love you so much!”

I don’t remember exactly what she said after that.  All I know is that Marja’s love and acceptance flowed over my soul that day like a healing balm.  She invited me to the Dream Center, and my heart’s desire was to extend the same encouragement to those who needed it.

“I don’t trust people who haven’t been through something,” I told the ladies.  “And I have a feeling that most of you have been through adversity.  You’ve known some deep pain and heartache.”  Many women responded vocally.

As I began recounting my personal story, I also preached about making choices—how bad choices get us into trouble, but “God choices” get us out.

So today, my message hasn’t changed that much.  It’s one of transparency, God’s love and acceptance, and full restoration.  There are many added dimensions of my life since marrying Jim Bakker and adopting five children, but the core of my ministry will always be that no matter what you’ve done, God will forgive you and turn your life around if you give your heart to Him.  If you make Jesus your Master, Owner, Possessor… He will give you even “More Than You Could Ever Ask.”

Love,

Lori-Blue-Pen-Transparent

8 thoughts on “Why I Share My Testimony

  1. The Truth is what set us Free.It gave my husband and I our ministry for the last 47 yrs. P.T.L.
    We are married 62yrs.and still ministering to people how to recover from their addictions.Only by The Grace of God.” YOU CAN’T KEEP IT UNLESS YOU GIVE IT AWAY”

  2. Lori, God says that when we except the Lord as our savior, we become new creators in Christ
    and all our sins are wiped away. thank the Lord.

  3. Thank you, Lori, for your openness and honesty. I’ve never been through what you have, but I have incredible respect for you. I read your book a couple of years ago and it impacted me greatly! I’d never read a story like yours and I couldn’t put the book down. It helped me to not look on others to judge them, but to recognize that Jesus died for them and if He loves them, I should also. God began purifying my heart through the story of your life.As I said,k I have great respect for you, my dear, and am praying for you daily.

  4. Thank you,dear sweet Lori…the love and light of Yeshua shines through you, and you are loved…I send the healing power of our saviour through every part of your body!!!

  5. Thank you for being so transparent and for sharing ……God must have a big smile on His face each time you do ! Love you Lori ! XO MyMy

  6. Lori I think you are so right to share your testimony…it takes courage and I know you do help many women out there….God has restored and Blessed ;you and Jim and thats what it is all about…We love you and thank God for what you do for all of us in many ways…God Bless you and your family…The Cantore Family!

  7. AGAIN MY DEAR SISTER IN THE LORD, YOUR TRANSPARENCY IS GOD INSPIRING, I’M PRAYING FOR YOUR HEALING EVERYDAY!!! LOVED THE SHOW YESTERDAY!! KEEP ON KEEPING ON IN JESUS NAME!! LOVE IN CHRIST, BROTHER JEREMIAH.

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